Friday, April 13, 2018

Said Good-bye To Lana Today


This morning I made the decision to put Lana to sleep. It was painful and difficult.  I realized that if my mother had been in the shape that Lana is in, and the doctors were keeping her alive, I would be furious. Reframing the situation made me realize that prolonging Lana's suffering was not the kind thing to do. I had to face the truth. The vet agreed with me. He was so gentle with her. 


The grief has made me feel sick, but I am plugging away at my work and chores. Knitting helps. It's excellent therapy.  Lula's company is also very comforting. She is such a sweet and loyal dog. She has been extremely sensitive and caring. I plan to take her for a hike later on this afternoon.

I've been working on the edits for my second article for Dance Magazine. It's exciting to be part of such an excellent publication. I hadn't realized how much I miss working with people from New York, and the interaction with other dancers. It gives me a wonderful lift. I've always enjoyed being part of something bigger than myself. 


I may have an exciting interview coming up. (with a very talented and accomplished Broadway star.) I went out on a limb and contacted her. I was delighted to hear that she is very interested;  I am just waiting to see if we get approval  from her creative team. It really gives me such a charge to talk with artists who have achieved such greatness. I have been incredibly  fortunate in my career. Learning  from the masters and performing with the stars has been thrilling. Sometimes I feel like I need to pinch myself!

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16 comments:

  1. It took an enormous amount of love and compassion in order to make that decision, Stephenie.
    Wishing you Peace and Grace this evening.

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    1. Thank you Jill. Your writing is always so beautiful. The tears are constantly flowing right now, but it's better than stuffing the emotions in the body. She had a peaceful passing, with her head buried in my lap.

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  2. Sending hugs and lots of positive energy to you, Stephenie. I'm glad that Lula is with you.

    Good luck with the upcoming interview!

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    1. Thanks Nil. I'm glad, too. She's so sweet. Hope you are doing well.

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  3. I'm so sorry, Stephenie. I'm sure your beautiful Lana knew that you loved her so. Meg Xx

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    1. Thank Meg. She was so pretty. I've been enjoying looking at her pictures, and watching a video I made of her today.

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  4. Sorry for your loss, I have been through the same.
    Be gentle on yourself and take time. xx

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    1. Thank you Simple Living. Today was much better than yesterday. I had so much support from blog readers and friends. It really helps.

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  5. Thinking of you Stephenie. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    1. Thanks Anita. I am relieved that she is no longer suffering.

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  6. I feel your pain, I made that decision with my wonderful boy Harry. I haven't had another pet since. Keep busy, grief does subside with time.

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    1. Sorry about Harry, Tania. Yes, the grief is already much better, thanks. I hope she's happily playing frisbee in heaven.

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  7. I am sending you a gentle hug across the airwaves, Lana isn't suffering anymore and you aren't hurting watching her suffer. Give it a little time. xxxx

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    1. That's so true. Thank you. Have been watching the videos that I took of her. She was so sweet, and loved life.

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  8. so sorry for your loss
    thought she was doing well but i guess she was doing her best to please you again; it's never an easy decision, glad that she is no longer suffering; will you bury her at home? i have planted trees on all my beloved dogs & the cats are all in the herb garden
    hugs to you & Lula
    thanx for sharing

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    1. Hi Selina, She was cremated. We have wildlife here, so I don't bury my pets. She is in my heart. Thank you.

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